like hemmingway.

unconditional and true love is the one where nothing is expected from you. it's easy to come and go when there are no rules or expectations.

i see that you put your bread in the fridge.
i see that you still unplug the microwave.

you see that i still never fold my clothes, and i'm still comfortable throwing them on your floor.

friendship defines you. the people we influence. love. define you.
we are all so easily definable. and yet we get offended when we are defined.
i made my second home here. when i ran away from tennessee. i made a home. a nest. a family. something away from the people that raised me. i raised myself. here. with help.

nothing is expected of me from anyone. it's so hard to remember that with a lover. i know that i don't want another one of those for a very long time.


her guitar rests against my breast which sits so comfortably on the curve. my wrist is arched. like i would be spreading open a lover. but this is on my left hand. and this is painful because the strings cut into my fingertips.

i used to write songs in my early 20s. but i could only find my voice to sing them to people that were not my lovers. once i had two lovers at once. i had two.

i sang them a ditty and my voice cracked. then they recorded the same song i had written and played it for me. their voice was strong.

doesn't that sum a lot of it up right there? we are the sum of all of our parts.
and this song was about hemmingway.

i wrote it when i was 21. i could sing it better now.