rebuffed.

this red pencil. daydream. bridge. sunset.


i found my old livejournal! ahahahahaha.



circa 2002

many misconceptions
to concieve
virgin mary
no entrance
no exit wound
train track trestle
take your pain
and nestle
into my chest
rests
my heart
baby bird beaten
sacrifice on a road block
not so soft
ani ani ani all the way home
and i come home
along way from alone
empty room
empty bed
turn around
no messages
no girl to give me head
and i'd slap her
but i love her too much
dirty fucking slut
dirty fingers
groping my clean heart
you don't need scissors
to tear it apart
bare hands and teeth will do
nicely thankyou
just like my favorite sex
get her to show off-
"come on baby flex"
what the fuck are you trying to prove
i'll trade a disillusioned me
for a disillusioned you
hug you kiss you fuck you kill you
it's all the same
it all equals the same equation
you+me=
pain pain pain
and i am more than just insides
i am more than just fingernails
i am more than just skin
i am sin
but skin is what i am in
i'm junked up
and im fucked up
a-‘run-around drunk’
so- "i hope you dance"
so i can walkaway